from my point of view, life seems to be terribly unfair towards me. well i wont deny that everyone has their fair share of problems. but mine just seem to be weighing down on me. its like a burden that i am lugging around. and now its so heavy that i even find it difficult to take another step further. maybe its due to the fact that i keeping running away from problems. so they are all accumulating up, suffocating me. every thing is just so unfair. everything.

why do i have to face obstacles that no one else have to? why must i take a bumpy path instead of a smooth one. why. its really taking a toll on me. i rather just have a normal life. i rather be poor and happy. i would give up everything just to be happy. i would.

June, i miss you. i have so much to tell you!

sometimes i will ask myself. why does God put me, anyone through all these torments and sufferings. when i know the answer myself. cause God is preparing us for something bigger. he wants to test if we are up for it. yadayadayada. i know its kinda rude. but have he ever wondered that. i dont want to be put through all these. i want my peaceful life. i rather it be smooth sailing and plain. i rather not be able to experience joy because i dont experience pain.

because life is never fair. because you wont be able to taste joy without pain. really. tell that to the people that are suffering. they wont find it that amusing.

because life and relationships are so fragile and unpredictable. we should all stop whining and start showing appreciation for all we have. cause maybe then, we will not have regrets.

i have never liked living.

i need a new blogskin!

i dont know what to say.

yay! today is promotional exercise day! which means i do not have to suffer the torment of being in this omg am i going to retain or am i going to promote thing. but i aint sure if i want it this way. do i?

i hate pw. thank god its coming to an end. phew. i hate reading and reading and reading my presentation over and over again! argggggg.

and boyfriend, i thought u were so nice to me la. in the end. haiya. u are such a disappointment. asshole! haha. (fyi: its just a form of address.)

just say it man, im so screwed.

if i get promoted. wait. when im promoted,

i will i promise, i would mug like hell.

watch out u bloody muggers, im coming to join u all. HAHA.

that is if i get promoted. ya.

there is no conditional promotion. but elvis said that there is moderation!

should i keep my hopes high?


anyway. guess what. im so going to get a psp/ that blue thing that jiawei has. when i have the cash. i just spent like 140 bucks yesterday la. omg.

oh and we finally cleaned up ssc room. ironically, it was jiawei whom found the room too dirty for humans to be in. and he even lifted the sofa to check underneath (he was the one whom wanted to like kick the stuff underneath the sofa the last ime when he offered t help me clean up.). lol. i think its way cleaner now.

and yes! we have water prac tomorrow!

oh and kwek wenjie. u caused me to be late for morning training today!i missed two bus you know! hmm. u owe me lunch?

a conversation between my dad and i.

dad: so do u save?
me: hmmm. no?

dad: what do u spend your money on?
me: erhs.... (how do u expect me to tell me, um i cab average 4 times a week to school.)

dad: you dont get a small sum of money you know.
me: huh....

dad: i've decided. you should not get so much money at your age, i shall give u less.
me: sobsss........

my dad cut my allowance by 30 bucks can. as quoted from xuekai. how am i ever going to survive? im am not going to cab ever again, unless you know emergencies like exams. and im dinning at foodcourt and hawker centers from next week onwards.





i have no idea how to check the bloody after promos timetable.
i hate technology!

oh btw, i just sub passed everything like overall. equals retain. ahhh. as in i didnt fail promos, but when combined with like mid years and faculty test which i totall screwed it up, obviously i um, fail la. i want to scream!

they shouldnt even call it sub pass. call it fail man.



i need alcohol, baileys maybe?
& i am so looking forward to the 645 training tomorrow. so looking.