i could have. i seriously could.

i dont know. omg. i capped when i was rowing up to the thousand mark. and that is the WORSE thing to do just before your race. like WORSE WORSE. i was crying all the way up and down the race. and i stoned. i STONED. i didnt start moving till i saw. HEY. THE OTHER BOATS ARE MOVING. omg. seriously. how dumb can i get.
and i cried somemore when i got onshore.

OH WELLS.

i realised im really lucky to be in tpjc. and to hell with mjc and cjc. i like tpjc better. thank god my appeal didnt get through. i have really nice seniors.

thank you gifford.
you are deep. more than i thought what u were. thank you for showing me how lucky i am. thank you for consoling me. thank you for making me laugh. thank you.
thank you kiwi.
thank you for making my days. thank you for ct papers. thank you for teaching me math. thank you for being my punching bag. :)
thanks elvis.
thanks for encouraging me. i dont think i would have made it this far without your encouragement or without you pushing me.
thank you denise and weimin for teaching me bio. without your help, i wouldnt even have that 20 over percent.
i think what im trying to say is. thanks for everything. and im really lucky. i would seriously miss the seniors, all the seniors then they are gone. the team wouldnt be the same without you all.

omg. omg omg omg omg omg omg.
NATIONALS IS TMR.

WHAT IF.
I CAP?
I COME IN LAST.
I DONT EVEN FINISH THE RACE?
I FORGET TO REPORT?

what if?

tell me i wont. tell me i will make it to the finals. tell me. tell me i can. and that i will finish the race. tell me.

I WILL!!!



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i saw him today, it doesnt make me feel any better. but much worse.

i need help. i think im suffering from some menal condition.
GOD. SAVE ME.

i realised i have nothing much to say.

oh wells. my birthday is coming this sat.
PRESENT DEARIES. (esp. u, june tan!)

haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNNIE DEAR! hello best friend you owe me my birthday present for 2 years already. but im nice. so i will still buy you one.

HAHA.

kiwi says i have no life cause i only blog about canoe training. ahhh. so i should talk about something else!

I REALISE I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO TALK ABOUT. OMG.

okay. i do have no life.

im going to stop capping soon. i want to join the rest at interval training and and bursting!!! i want i want.

the raptor is my new baby.
muderous raptor.

i was a contented k2 rower. then POOF* all of a sudden i become a fustrated, unstable, cap-able k1 rower.

today's run sucked. it wasnt my best. i couldnt pick up speed at all. everytime i tried to pick up, all my muscles screamed at me to stop and slow down.

it must be the major monday blues. tuesday should be much better. :]

YIPPY! SEE ME OUT PADDLE THE NJC K1 ROWERS!
im still in lala land.

was really uoset in the first part of the training. like i kept capping.

ROAR!

but. huijun brightened my day!
YIPPY.

its a lousy day.

i cant seem to sit straight on a canoe. and its getting to me. like argg. ive been rowing for quite some time now. why. is it still like that?!? no. i must find out whats wrong. and i will!

and guess what. i actually passed maths facutly test. the only thing to brighten my day.

oh wells. i will just have to try harder.