im depressed.

its not like i did freaking badly.

i was actually happy with my o level results. but i realised, with my mediocre results, i cant hardly make it into any jc. why is this so? i cant help but to fell that why am i so freaking dumb. like most of my friends made it to like prestige jcs, like acjc, njc and even hwachong. and im like going to oh, tampines jc. i dont know to feel happy or sad. like so many other friends of mine are dying to get in. but im here dying to get out. to just any other random jc. even srjc. or even back to mi. i sorta like the seniors there. at least they are friendly and the dance team there rocks. its not like tpjc sucks. i guess its just me feeling miserable. feeling like im freaking dumb. and that bloody ogl there. I HATE HER. i think if she was of any fun, i would like it there better.

oh what the fuck. im determined to get it all worked out in tpjc. i dont want to be miserable there for a whole 2 years.

im going to cry.