ever wondered if anything and everything at all is all worth it?

june holidays are here. and im really freaking out. cause it only means that A LEVELS are also drawing closer. tell me that i will study. ensure that i do. wont you?

it is actually a pretty weird feeling to feel happy and proud of a close friend, yet have a tinge of jealousy, because you are unsure. unsure of what the future holds, unsure if you are able to accomplish what he/she/they have done. then after, comes the guilt part. where you know you should not be feeling that way about your close friend. ( see la Marcus, June, Daryl, Ivan do so well for a levels for what. now i don't know whether to be happy for you all or worried about myself. )

I don't know I don't know I don't know. All I know is that I'm apprehensive of the future.

And I want to win my bet. Watch out Marc and Ivan, bear our bet in mind.

Insecure. Thats how I feel about my entire life so far. Any harmless little thing can break me.